Poetry

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cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0 border=0><tr> <td valign="top" colspan=2 height=90 BGCOLOR="#000000" TEXT="#F7F7FF"> <div> <FONT SIZE="5" COLOR="#FFCC66" FACE="Arial" ><B>Welcome to the New Darkness</b></FONT><B>     |     </b><A HREF="index.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Welcome to the New Darkness"><U><B>home</b></U></A></div> <div> <B>Poetry</b>   |   <A HREF="id5.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Komari"><U>Komari</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id6.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Short Stories"><U>Short Stories</U></A></div> <div> </div> </td> </tr><tr> <td valign="top" width=210 BGCOLOR="#BF0000" TEXT="#F7F7FF"> <div> <A HREF="id18.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Final Farewells"><U>Final Farewells</U></A> Series</div> <div> <IMG SRC="06c0eaa0.gif" border=0 width="270" height="170" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> </td> <td valign="top" height=390 BGCOLOR="#FFFFFF" TEXT="#080000" background="06169d33.gif"> <div> <I>Poetry</I></div> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Untitled</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Look at its brilliance</b></div> <div> <B>Watch its lonely dance in the dark</b></div> <div> <B>Do you want to join?</b></div> <div> <B>Careful now, careful</b></div> <div> <B>The dance is a dangerous one</b></div> <div> <B>It can burn you with simplistic ease</b></div> <div> <B>But you will not be the only one joining</b></div> <div> <B>For soon, oh so soon!</b></div> <div> <B>The world too will be dancing to its tune</b></div> <div> <B>Welcome to the fire of my anger</b></div> <div> <B>My rage that dances its dance so serenly</b></div> <div> <B>The fire in my soul shall consume the world</b></div> <div> <B>Set down your hopes and join my deadly dance</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>She Left</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Oh how life's strife can torture</b></div> <div> <B>Especially if it is her</b></div> <div> <B>She left me all alone</b></div> <div> <B>It is all her fault</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B>I will never hurt you on purpose</b></I></div> <bR> <div> <B>So here I stand</b></div> <div> <B>Pushed past my brink</b></div> <div> <B>Thrown far over the slim bridge of sanity</b></div> <div> <B>A knife, sharper than my mind</b></div> <div> <B>The answer is only a swipe away</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B>No, please don't!</b></I></div> <div> <I><B>Your stronger than this!!!</b></I></div> <bR> <div> <B>With a swipe I can join her</b></div> <div> <B>We will be together again </b></div> <div> <B>But I can't kill myself</b></div> <div> <B>Why did you go?</b></div> <div> <B>How could you do this to me?</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B>I love you...</b></I></div> <div> <I><B>Please remain strong for me</b></I></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Untitled</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>I try to ease your pain</b></div> <div> <B>Bring an end to your suffering </b></div> <div> <B>You turn me away</b></div> <div> <B>Throw away my attempts at comforting</b></div> <div> <B>Let me ease your mind</b></div> <div> <B>Let me dry your tears</b></div> <div> <B>I can understand</b></div> <div> <B>Understand what it is to be alone</b></div> <div> <B>Just let me help you</b></div> <div> <B>I will demonstrate my care</b></div> <div> <B>I will never let you be alone</b></div> <div> <B>Take my hand</b></div> <div> <B>Take your opportunity!!! </b></div> <div> <B>Do not cast me aside so easily</b></div> <div> <B>I know what will happen to you</b></div> <div> <B>The darkness is stronger than you know</b></div> <div> <B>And I will NOT</b></div> <div> <B>Not let you become like me</b></div> <div> <B>Become cold, heartless, uncaring</b></div> <div> <B>I won't allow it </b></div> <div> <B>Now take my hand</b></div> <div> <B>And I will lead you out of my domain</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Burn, Burn</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Burn,  burn, burn were his words</b></div> <div> <B>Who were they for</b></div> <div> <B>For you, I, or his love</b></div> <div> <B>No one may know</b></div> <div> <B>Or do we already</b></div> <div> <B>You brought him pain unimaginable</b></div> <div> <B>I brought him only sorrow</b></div> <div> <B>His love caused him grief...</b></div> <div> <B>Maybe the wind will whisper for us</b></div> <div> <B>It won't yet</b></div> <div> <B>Only if he were to rise would we know</b></div> <div> <B>Now we pay for our transgressions</b></div> <div> <B>Someday though we might be free</b></div> <div> <B>But only in hell...</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Alone</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Alone in the consuming darkness he cries</b></div> <div> <B>Cries out desperate for help, for someone to save him</b></div> <div> <B>Save him from the humble evils that dwell in the depths of his soul</b></div> <div> <B>His soul that hides his remains, but no</b></div> <div> <B>But no, they turn away from him leaving him alone</b></div> <div> <B>Leaving him alone in his all-consuming darkness, they drive him</b></div> <div> <B>Drive him further, deeper down into the swelling depths of darkness</b></div> <div> <B>Into the dark consuming depths of insecurities and selfhate</b></div> <div> <B>Insecurities and selfhate that merely feed the darkness</b></div> <div> <B>The darkness only swells more at his failed attempts</b></div> <div> <B>Failed attempts at help and so he cries out, again</b></div> <div> <B>Cries our on last futile time</b></div> <div> <B>Last time for hoping, praying they will hear him, answer him</b></div> <div> <B>Answer his despicably weak prayers, though none are listenging</b></div> <div> <B>Listenging to his pathetic pleas</b></div> <div> <B>Pleas that go unanswered, he takes action</b></div> <div> <B>Takes action against the darkness all consuming now</b></div> <div> <B>Now they lift their heads to help</b></div> <div> <B>Help given too little, too late</b></div> <div> <B>Too late, to stop the burning the gunpowder</b></div> <div> <B>Gunpowder that sears their nose hairs as they silently stood</b></div> <div> <B>They silently stand in the lake of blood that has become his grave</b></div> <div> <B>He stands alone complacently in the darkness of his shallow bloody grave</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Lovely Death</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>My blackened love has left me cold and smashed</b></div> <div> <B>Forever sneaking from my iron grasp</b></div> <div> <B>From me my manly love is taken slashed</b></div> <div> <B>In Death's enchanting hand my love is grasp</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Oh why did I consort a breathing rasp</b></div> <div> <B>A life of love gone in one fatal blast</b></div> <div> <B>My time was wasted on a stinging asp</b></div> <div> <B>Oh, for i know this love could never last</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Caressing deep held feelings till my time</b></div> <div> <B>Ah, how I would rejoice my hauntful past</b></div> <div> <B>Into the the role of an enduring mime</b></div> <div> <B>Forever Death will hold my love in a cast</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>So, till the end of time our love will meld</b></div> <div> <B>My love for Death, forever to be held</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Battles</U></b></I></div> <bR> <div> <B>Life is a never ending battle </b></div> <div> <B>Many can say that have survived it </b></div> <div> <B>Few can say that they did not </b></div> <div> <B>Those few though have many a reason why the battle ended </b></div> <div> <B>The ones they called friends turned on them </b></div> <div> <B>The ones that they trusted left them for dead </b></div> <div> <B>That is why some of the few did not survive </b></div> <div> <B>The others of this few could not take it </b></div> <div> <B>So they ended their lives themselves </b></div> <div> <B>Either through hanging of by methods of extreme violence </b></div> <div> <B>These few should be cried for </b></div> <div> <B>Their friends should cry the most </b></div> <div> <B>Because they did not help them </b></div> <div> <B>Help them in a time of need </b></div> <div> <B>These so called friends are the ones who deserve death </b></div> <div> <B>Not the others, they wanted help but weren't given any </b></div> <div> <B>Now these people have a weight on their shoulder </b></div> <div> <B>One I would not want </b></div> <div> <B>But many do not want this weight </b></div> <div> <B>So ask yourself this </b></div> <div> <B>Have I known someone who committed suicide that I could have helped? </b></div> <div> <B>If yes then you can burn in hell</b></div> <bR> <div> <TABLE BORDER="0" CELLPADDING="1" CELLSPACING="1" WIDTH="22" BORDERCOLORLIGHT="#C0C0C0" BORDERCOLORDARK="#808080" FRAME="VOID" RULES="NONE" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0" > <tR> <tD VALIGN=CENTER HEIGHT= 19 WIDTH="18"><div> <IMG SRC="03c01010.gif" border=0 width="1" height="1" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> </tD> </tR> </TABLE></div> <div> <IMG SRC="03c01010.gif" border=0 width="1" height="1" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Blood Runs</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>On a</b><FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#00FF33" FACE="Arial" ><B> day when man's blood runs blue </b></FONT></div> <div> <B>On a day when man's fears come true </b></div> <div> <B>On a day when you see me dead </b></div> <div> <B>Its on that day you will see </b></div> <div> <B>Its on that day that he will be </b></div> <div> <B>That he will be here to pass judgment on me </b></div> <div> <B>That he will take me away from here to a better place </b></div> <div> <B>To a place where pain does not hurt </b></div> <div> <B>To a place where I'll never have to cry again </b></div> <div> <B>Where it is I do not know </b></div> <div> <B>But I hope it's the place I get to go</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Destruction</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Out to destroy myself </b></div> <div> <B>Not physically or mentally </b></div> <div> <B>I am not out to die </b></div> <div> <B>Only to emotionally raveage myself </b></div> <div> <B>Not allowing myself to get to close </b></div> <div> <B>Not allowing emotions to help guide me </b></div> <div> <B>Trying to bury or destroy my feelings </b></div> <div> <B>Fo anyone or thing do I wish gone are my feelings </b></div> <div> <B>Hiding all love, and hate I can </b></div> <div> <B>Now my path of destruction comes to a crossroad </b></div> <div> <B>Instead of just myself now I am destroying friendships </b></div> <div> <B>I never thought it would come to this </b></div> <div> <B>But now it has and I am lost </b></div> <div> <B>So it continues </b></div> <div> <B>And so will my subconcious continue </b></div> <div> <B>I don't think anything can stop it </b></div> <div> <B>I only hope someone's love can help me </b></div> <div> <B>Help me stop my selfdestruction </b></div> <div> <B>I can only hope and pray</b><FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#FFFFFF" FACE="Arial" ><B> </b></FONT></div> <bR> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Demons</U></b></I></div> <bR> <div> <B>They are on their way </b></div> <div> <B>Not able to be stopped </b></div> <div> <B>Not Angels or Archangels shall stand in their way </b></div> <div> <B>Doubts will linger if God even has the power </b></div> <div> <B>Or was it God that sicked these Demons upon humanity? </b></div> <div> <B>As his final mandate from the heavens above </b></div> <div> <B>None to be spared, not even his beloved Christians </b></div> <div> <B>Blindly did they walk into the light </b></div> <div> <B>Only to be the first to die from his might </b></div> <div> <B>The Demons are here and thirsty they are </b></div> <div> <B>For blood of Atheists and Christian alike </b></div> <div> <B>For Catholic, Buddhist, even those that don't care </b></div> <div> <B>None are shown mercy and God couldn't care </b></div> <div> <B>For in his mind justice is done </b></div> <div> <B>His wonder, his failure is being destroyed </b></div> <div> <B>"What fools they were" he laughs </b></div> <div> <B>Many ask why their God turned on them </b></div> <div> <B>And why he laughs at their perplextion </b></div> <div> <B>Just look at the world </b></div> <div> <B>Look at how it has fallen </b></div> <div> <B>Barbarians pretending to be civilized is humanity </b></div> <div> <B>And God did what he says is just and right </b></div> <div> <B>Destroying his greatest creation </b></div> <div> <B>Destroying his greatest failure </b></div> <div> <B>Destroying his only source of power</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Reaching Higher</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>The flames crawl upward into the light blue sky </b></div> <div> <B>Clawing toward its final destination </b></div> <div> <B>Stretching from the smallest of microscopic cracks </b></div> <div> <B>Creeping from the fiery pits of hell </b></div> <div> <B>Taking form and shape in now ash blackend sky </b></div> <div> <B>Eyes of blood and face of fire </b></div> <div> <B>Dancing about to and fro </b></div> <div> <B>A low growl that makes souls tremble </b></div> <div> <B>A stare that pierces nobelst of hearts </b></div> <div> <B>Children weeping silently </b></div> <div> <B>Men cowering in fear </b></div> <div> <B>Women begging for lives </b></div> <div> <B>Screams from around the globe fill the blood thick air </b></div> <div> <B>Then all is as it was </b></div> <div> <B>Silence and nothing more </b></div> <div> <B>Blue sky with accents of white </b></div> <div> <B>Now all can rest in peace </b></div> <div> <B>Because the time of Armagedon is done</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Simple Things</U></b></I></div> <bR> <div> <B>She asks me what I want </b></div> <div> <B>Demanding that I answer </b></div> <div> <B>Letting her anger get the better of her </b></div> <div> <B>I hug her to calm her nerves </b></div> <div> <B>And tell her not to worry </b></div> <div> <B>But she does, all the way till Christmas </b></div> <div> <B>She cries because she couldn't find anything </b></div> <div> <B>So now I tell her </b></div> <div> <B>Tell her what it is I want </b></div> <div> <B>I tell her to hug me and thats all </b></div> <div> <B>So she does with tears in her eyes </b></div> <div> <B>My heart melts as I hold her</b></div> <div> <B>Realizing how much she means to me </b></div> <div> <B>And because of that I give her my gift </b></div> <div> <B>Three simple words I can hardly say</b></div> <div> <B>But for her I can say I love you </b></div> <div> <TABLE BORDER="0" CELLPADDING="1" CELLSPACING="1" WIDTH="12" BORDERCOLORLIGHT="#C0C0C0" BORDERCOLORDARK="#808080" FRAME="VOID" RULES="NONE" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0" > <tR> <tD VALIGN=CENTER HEIGHT= 19 WIDTH="8"><div> <IMG SRC="03c01010.gif" border=0 width="1" height="1" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> </tD> </tR> </TABLE></div> <div> <IMG SRC="03c01010.gif" border=0 width="1" height="1" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Smile</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Her simple smile is all it takes </b></div> <div> <B>A smiles that's sweet and warming </b></div> <div> <B>Her smile filled with happiness </b></div> <div> <B>A smile that lightens my heart to see </b></div> <div> <B>To make my soul drift along an endless sea </b></div> <div> <B>To take me someplace I never thought existed </b></div> <div> <B>Her smile </b></div> <div> <B>That's all it takes </b></div> <div> <B>To brighten my day </b></div> <div> <B>Lighten my heart </b></div> <div> <B>To make me smile </b></div> <div> <B>And realize how great it is to be in love</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Stand There</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Stand there silent and noble </b></div> <div> <B>Stand there mekely and pathetically </b></div> <div> <B>Go ahead and stand there </b></div> <div> <B>Stand there as the world around you dies </b></div> <div> <B>Stand there while your friends weep silent cries </b></div> <div> <B>Go ahead just Stand There! </b></div> <div> <B>Stand there and prove you aren't a man </b></div> <div> <B>Stand there and see what you have wrought </b></div> <div> <B>Go ahead and just stand there </b></div> <div> <B>Maybe someday you will awake </b></div> <div> <B>To see the nightmare you so dilligently ignore </b></div> <div> <B>Just stand there because you're worth more</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Wind Whispers</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>There are whispers in the wind </b></div> <div> <B>Telling of Times long gone and those yet to come </b></div> <div> <B>Tellings of good fortune are whispered softly </b></div> <div> <B>Those of misfortune are wept </b></div> <div> <B>The wind knows all the stories </b></div> <div> <B>Tells them all again and again </b></div> <div> <B>It hears all and sees all </b></div> <div> <B>It knows your pain and misery </b></div> <div> <B>So it sings of loss and sorrow </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Then the wind is told my story </b></div> <div> <B>Tears run down my cheeks </b></div> <div> <B>I whisper silent goodbyes only the wind can hear </b></div> <div> <B>Looking in the mirror I look at myself </b></div> <div> <B>Looking for one last time </b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Finally the wind weeps </b></div> <div> <B>Tiny drops of rain dance across window panes </b></div> <div> <B>The wind weeps till it's sadness is appeased </b></div> <div> <B>And in the end only hot embers remain </b></div> <div> <B>Along with the wind retelling my story amongst others </b></div> <div> <B>Till the end of time</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Untitled</U></b></I></div> <bR> <div> <B>I wipe away tears</b></div> <div> <B>Tears of years long past</b></div> <div> <B>Tears of years yet to come</b></div> <div> <B>Yet from these tears I draw some strength</b></div> <div> <B>Strength to do what is just and right</b></div> <div> <B>Just and right in my soul</b></div> <div> <B>Then I do the dirty deed</b></div> <div> <B>Plunging deeply ino a darkness in my soul</b></div> <div> <B>Delving deeper into the darkness without fear</b></div> <div> <B>Into the darkness that consumates my human nature</b></div> <div> <B>Searching for answers to prying questions</b></div> <div> <B>Recieving no answers in return  </b></div> <div> <B>Why would an evil so consuming answer me?</b></div> <div> <B>It never would or will</b></div> <div> <B>After all it is my nature to dwell within the darker side of my soul</b></div> <div> <B>That is why I do the terrible deed</b></div> <div> <B>The deed that so few expected from me</b></div> <div> <B>A deed some call sin</b></div> <div> <B>A deed that I now call Freedom</b></div> <div> <B>A deed that has left me buried</b></div> <div> <B>Buried deep below the surface</b></div> <div> <B>And all because of my human nature</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>I Wish..</U></b></I><B>.</b></div> <div> <B>I wish I was someone people could love</b></div> <div> <B>I wish my friends could know me</b></div> <div> <B>I wish I had someone to confide in</b></div> <div> <B>I wish love was understandable</b></div> <div> <B>I wish for this and so much more</b></div> <div> <B>For wishing is all I have left</b></div> <div> <B>Wishing for the things I cannot have</b></div> <div> <B>I don't realize why I wish</b></div> <div> <B>What is the point in wishing?</b></div> <div> <B>It is what keeps me alive</b></div> <div> <B>Hoping some of these feeble wishes might come true</b></div> <div> <B>That is all I have</b></div> <div> <B>Until I have someone to love or can be loved</b></div> <div> <B>Until I find someone to confide in</b></div> <div> <B>Until my wishes come true</b></div> <div> <B>All I can do is try..</b></div> <div> <B>Try to make them come true</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Untitled</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Let my reign of terror begin</b></div> <div> <B>Let the blood of innocents be spilled</b></div> <div> <B>Let Satan take hold of my soul</b></div> <div> <B>Let my end begin</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Blod will flow like rivers</b></div> <div> <B>Blood shall cover the earth</b></div> <div> <B>Blood is the only way</b></div> <div> <B>Blood can pave the path</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>I am hatred</b></div> <div> <B>I am burned with cold down to my soul</b></div> <div> <B>I am the flame that will consume you</b></div> <div> <B>I am your judge and executioner</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Satan will lie bloodied and beaten</b></div> <div> <B>God will kneel before my hatred for his mistake</b></div> <div> <B>Animals will rot into the wind</b></div> <div> <B>Babies will go unanswered into the night</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>You cannot avoid the dark wave from coming</b></div> <div> <B>You cannot turn back its mighty hand</b></div> <div> <B>You cannot fight</b></div> <div> <B>You cannot win</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>I know </b></div> <div> <B>I have already failed</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Wrong Again</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>come to me now in my time of need</b></div> <div> <B>dance with me under the moon's silver light</b></div> <div> <B>let your worries go and do this deed</b></div> <div> <B>you have no wish to some and take flight? </b></div> <div> <B>how sad that is</b></div> <div> <B>I will not fight your final thought</b></div> <div> <B>you say I need help?</b></div> <div> <B>you tell me I am wrong?</b></div> <div> <B>am I so wrong to desire a dance?</b></div> <div> <B>you say it is the things I have done and said</b></div> <div> <B>which make you turn down my dance</b></div> <div> <B>I have not answered your questions?</b></div> <div> <B>what questions are there to answer?</b></div> <div> <B>I want your friendship nothing more</b></div> <div> <B>if you consider me less then pain will strike my heart</b></div> <div> <B>you do consider me less</b></div> <div> <B>I can see it in your eyes</b></div> <div> <B>I can feel it through your words</b></div> <div> <B>hate me</b></div> <div> <B>resent me</b></div> <div> <B>this is how you truly feel about me</b></div> <div> <B>why had you not told me earlier?</b></div> <div> <B>why did you not warn me?</b></div> <div> <B>I know why</b></div> <div> <B>you wanted it to hurt more</b></div> <div> <B>just like everybody else that has hurt me</b></div> <div> <B>well I forgive you</b></div> <div> <B>and I hope someday you too</b></div> <div> <B>will forgive me too</b></div> <div> <B>forgive me for my stupidity and ignorance</b></div> <div> <B>I only hope you will</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Untitled</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Take your feelings and throw them out</b></div> <div> <B>Throw your hate into the bonfire burning my soul</b></div> <div> <B>Add to the hate that burns me alive</b></div> <div> <B>Add to my fire!</b></div> <div> <B>Spurn me!</b></div> <div> <B>Hate me!</b></div> <div> <B>Give your wishes of death!</b></div> <div> <B>I want nothing to do with this realm any longer</b></div> <div> <B>I want to burn from the inside</b></div> <div> <B>i want the world to see me for the bastard I am</b></div> <div> <B>Go ahead and add to my fire</b></div> <div> <B>My self-hate</b></div> <div> <B>Everything you do makes me weaker and the fire stronger</b></div> <div> <B>Now I'm weaker than ever</b></div> <div> <B>NOW LISTEN! Hear my cries of a silent goodbye</b></div> <div> <B>And listen for the sound of emptiness</b></div> <div> <B>Do you hear it?</b></div> <div> <B>I don't </b></div> <div> <B>Thats because I'm still alive</b></div> <div> <B>But soon I will be dust in the wind</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I><B><U>Untitled</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>The time to for worries is done</b></div> <div> <B>My pain and suffering come to an end</b></div> <div> <B>You told me you were sorry</b></div> <div> <B>Now you tell me I will never tell a truth?</b></div> <div> <B>Call me a liar if you must</b></div> <div> <B>I will know the truth I speak</b></div> <div> <B>Carrying the burdens of my pathetic existence</b></div> <div> <B>I shall forge myself a new steel</b></div> <div> <B>Darker, vulgarer, more violent shall it be</b></div> <div> <B>Everyone will suffer atrocities at my hand</b></div> <div> <B>A child of Hell is what it is</b></div> <div> <B>Heh, ruler no less</b></div> <div> <B>Be wary to step in my path</b></div> <div> <B>Even the whispering wind halts for fear of my wrath</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Of my Own...</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>I know not where my love has gone</b></div> <div> <B>I know not what it is I have become</b></div> <div> <B>Maybe I am only lost</b></div> <div> <B>Maybe I feel unloved by those close to me...</b></div> <div> <B>No that cannot be the answer</b></div> <div> <B>Yet I feel hurt and alone</b></div> <div> <B>Abandoned in a wilderness of my own creation</b></div> <div> <B>They say a mind is a terrible thing to waste </b></div> <div> <B>I say the mind is a terrible thing</b></div> <div> <B>The mind destroys</b></div> <div> <B>The mind creates</b></div> <div> <B>The mind of a man is too powerful</b></div> <div> <B>It can force you to be alone</b></div> <div> <B>Turn you against all that you love </b></div> <div> <B>This has been my unfortunate fate</b></div> <div> <B>Now I live my life alone in hate</b></div> <div> <B>Forever dead</b></div> <div> <B>Forever alone meandering in my own...</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Meaningless Existance</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Tomorroe a new life begins</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow pain will rule anew</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow my red molasses will flow</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow is all you know does exist</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow is just the beginning</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow holds no yesterdays</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow there is no present</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow you will not be</b></div> <div> <B>Tomorrow is all there is</b></div> <div> <B>So sad tomorrow will never come</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Lies in Fate</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Pain is the only release</b></div> <div> <B>Come to me now</b></div> <div> <B>Accept your fate</b></div> <div> <B>You pathetic mortal </b></div> <div> <B>Fate is all you have to accept</b></div> <div> <B>Wisdom is beyond your comprehention</b></div> <div> <B>Power is only a figment of your dwindling imagination</b></div> <div> <B>Get on your knees and beg</b></div> <div> <B>Beg for you life your worthless existence</b></div> <div> <B>God will not help you</b></div> <div> <B>Or save your tormented soul</b></div> <div> <B>Satan has you now</b></div> <div> <B>Stronger is his grip than your faith in god</b></div> <div> <B>So come to me</b></div> <div> <B>Let me be your release</b></div> <div> <B>Come to the pain</b></div> <div> <B>And accept your mortal fate</b></div> <bR> <div> <I><B><U>Another Dance</U></b></I></div> <div> <B>Would you look at her</b></div> <div> <B>Epitome of beauty and grace</b></div> <div> <B>Her dance shows this side of her best</b></div> <div> <B>Let you mind soar at her sight</b></div> <div> <B>Of her dance what a wonderful spectacle</b></div> <div> <B>You are so foolish if you cannot see</b></div> <div> <B>She calls you to join her in dance</b></div> <div> <B>Yet you reject her so openly</b></div> <div> <B>Her dance becons you to join!</b></div> <div> <B>So elegantly does it beon</b></div> <div> <B>Dance you fool, dance</b></div> <div> <B>Your love calls, now go</b></div> <div> <B>Unless you choose lonliness and death</b></div> <div> <B>Over everlasting love in a blissfull dance</b></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B>Ramblings of Insanity</b></div> <div> <B>What is it that I am doing here</b></div> <div> <B>All I bring to my friends is frustration and pain</b></div> <div> <B>Their hate is well deserved should they feel it</b></div> <div> <B>I insult them, harrass them, never compliment them</b></div> <div> <B>What type of monster can I be?</b></div> <div> <B>Never to say one nice thing to those who bring me only happiness</b></div> <div> <B>Never to mention just once how much I truly appreciate them</b></div> <div> <B>Such an asshole I am</b></div> <div> <B>They should just leave me be</b></div> <div> <B>Go off on their own and leave me to my misery</b></div> <div> <B>Their light is already fading from my eyes</b></div> <div> <B>Let them speed up the process rather than I </b></div> <div> <B>I never tell them anything</b></div> <div> <B>I do not even trust them enough to do that</b></div> <div> <B>Help is what I need</b></div> <div> <B>I will not get it I cannot ask</b></div> <div> <B>Each day it becomes harder to control my primal desires </b></div> <div> <B>Each I am afraid I will hurt one of them </b></div> <div> <B>I do not want to </b></div> <div> <B>Maybe I should just tell them farewell</b></div> <div> <B>And never again look them in their eyes</b></div> <div> <B>Their eyes that so often have comforted me</b></div> <div> <B>If only...</b></div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <B>Humanity</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Do you hear those tormented screams?</b></div> <div> <B>Put your ear to the door and you will hear</b></div> <div> <B>Listen to him carefully my dear</b></div> <div> <B>He is tormented by by his ungodly sins</b></div> <div> <B>His nectar is being stripped from him as I speak</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Heh, his own pathetic fault</b></div> <div> <B>Thinking bliss was the only answer</b></div> <div> <B>Fooling himself really, never living in reality</b></div> <div> <B>But now your not with him are you</b></div> <div> <B>No longer can you hold him as he confesses his sins</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Tsk, a foolish man you love</b></div> <div> <B>Going into Hell when he actually belongs elsewhere</b></div> <div> <B>Allowing his skin to be peeled away from the orange</b></div> <div> <B>Blood spilling and flowing through the caverns</b></div> <div> <B>My isn't he a strong one if he actually lives</b></div> <bR> <div> <B>Sigh, this all your fault you know</b></div> <div> <B>Maybe if he had not cared about you</b></div> <div> <B>Such an ugly tasteless thought don't you think?</b></div> <div> <B>No, you probably find it sweet and enduring compared to him</b></div> <div> <B>And he is the one paying your dues?</b></div> <div> <B>My you do not see true love at all do you?</b></div> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <B>Has humanity become so...</b></div> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>